My End

I can still feel the earth shaking

I'm on my knees and I'm praying

All these words have no meaning

To a point I said Am I dying?

My heart is numb 

My body's broken

My face looks calm

but inside I'm broken

These are thoughts of my own

This is my life that were never shown

From this crooked hand

I wrote this letter for my end

As I'm here alone

Judging all the sins that I've done

I'm mystified and terrified

counting down the days till I die

From my own hand

I wrote this letter for my end

Thank you for what you did

And Princess I didn't regret anything 

From the time we spent and the things we did

From every song we wrote to every song we'd sing

I don't know how to tell you that I'm dying 

But you took that burden off when you said you're leaving

Fall in love and be happy

And make sure he is better than me

These are the thoughts of my own

 I hope you would have known..

s.h.u

emptiness runs so deep
you may question what to keep
cold as winter nights grow
could we ever survive tomorrow?

a beam of light suddenly appear
and thank God it was you my dear
as my faith in this world restored
as i have you what could i want more

turn over a new leaf
i would never want us to leave
if darkness come and hatred grow
its still be hard to let you go

burning stars shine so bright
i would have never see your light
if you didn't come closer to where we are
i could imagine we would be so far

i thank you for the warm company
as i would love to have you with me
i always hope if you could see
but its only hope and not reality

this is it my thoughts and feelings
when you read this i hope you're smiling
because you are special to me
because you make me see

F I N A

things are going better
i hope it's not too late
i hope it's always better
i hope this is fate

i put my heart on the line for you
my love and my soul
i hope you do the same for me too
and don't leave my heart with holes

you may not realise how much you mean to me
you may not see what i see
but you are my everything
with you my heart sings

for everything that it's worth
im sorry for everything
and just for you my love
now my heart is hurting

her..

she's the best thing that happen to me..

she give me hope when there's nothing left

she give light when darkness come

she give me love when no one's around

i miss her every single day

even if she's near and not far away

sometimes she knows when i feel like this

sometimes she's too busy to notice

i love her even more everyday

i hope she knows what im trying to say

im scared someday she'll be gone away

i hope that day is when everything fades

working hard

it's been along day for me today..i've been working hard just to finish up some of the work to set up a new blog shop..and then im trying to finish writing the songs for recording in singapore..haih..well i'll post the lyrics of my new song soon..wish me luck guys

My thoughts

so here's the thing..im so stress out righ now..im trying to earn more money by opening a shopblog..and for a first timer it is kindda hard..the fact that there are many things to do make it impossible for me to do it smoothly..but now im trying so hard..and here is another thing my ex said that im the reason why we broke up..but the fact is she cheated on me not once, not twice, not even three times..it is actually four..i actually dont care about what she said but the thing that pisses me off the most is when she talked about my mom..wtf??!! You dont even no her why do you want talk that way about her..no respect at all..but now im fine..i just figured out that maybe she just want my attention..anyways..that is the story..i'll try to blog more often..im just a bit bz..bye for now

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